I changed a lot of things. Not only for you but myself. You were my first relationship and I’m not using that as an excuse or anything but I just didn’t know any better I guess. Everything you talked about I see now and after we broke up how it wasn’t okay… We both had our problems in our relationship… Me just not knowing right from wrong and you know I guess the same for you. I know for a fact tho that I was a damn good girlfriend and I always will be. Maybe I shouldn’t even try anyways cause I wouldn’t wanna be with someone who cheated on me anyways cause they will just do it again since they got away with it the first time.
Honestly. I know I screwed everything up. But all of my fuck ups were after we broke up and you still treat me like shit for everything. I’m sorry I hurt you but it’s all in the past… There’s nothing more I can do or say about it. I know you cheated but how is that I can be a stronger person to get over all of that and forgive you and still want to be with you. People forgive each other when they’ve been cheated on and we weren’t even together. I know it’s the fact that I said I would never do any of that I fucked up. I did. But it happened. It’s over. I’ve done everything I can do and you still don’t care. I wish I could take it all back. I miss the good ol days. I miss having someone. I hate being alone. I would be texting all of this stuff to you but you don’t care and you hate me so I just gotta find someone new.
Weird how everything on my dash just relates to me and my situation
"Drunk text me. Text me when the music is loud and there are girls dancing around you and you’re not quite coherent and you’re not quite yourself. Drunk text me that you love me or that you miss me or that I’m on your mind. Let the alcohol tell me all the things you won’t say sober."